Today is a very tiring day. I woke up at 1pm shiok sia long time nv sleep till so long liao.hehe. Den wake up liao eat den zo bo loh. I chat with friends on phone at evening. Den something funny happened.. my 2nd aunty thought today i my birthday party. haha. Den i quick go buy dinner for them to eat. Bai wu long. haha. She heard 31th and not 30th. Funny xia. 21st birthday got such thing happened.WAHAHAA... i sure can remember this day one. They bought mi perfume and from 5 perfume to 6 at the moment. How am i going to use them. haha. I scare they will expire. Anyway next friday is my actual day. I am still thinking where to celebrate.. Maybe go MS eat or maybe go cheong.. see who wanna celebrate for mi ba. haha :)

Finally i was settled down.. My birthday party was over.. Although it was quite tiring but was a wonderful day. Early moring woke up to get prepare. Once in the life time 21st birthday. Adult liao loh. I mean soon lah. Den noon buffet came. Slowly fypj and ze qiang they all reached. Den late noon others joined in. We enjoy singing ktv and eating the food. The food was quite nice too. At 3.30pm, i and jun hao took a ride out to admiralty mrt to collect the cake. Den on the way fetch hui ling. At 4.45pm, i was abt to cut the cake. Birthday song was sung by my fellow friends. Pai seh meh tat time.. haha den at 5.30. 1st batch friend left slowly..

6.00pm my classmate and relative joined in slowly. At 7pm my house was filled with lots of ppl again. Den we sang ktv as usual and had our dinner. At 9, 2nd round of birthday song. Haha. Pai seh again... Pieces of cake were distributed. Den we cant finish the cake, we played a game who lose who eat.. hehe. Quite fun xia.

Almost 11pm, everyone is leaving loh. I cleaned up the place and took a cold bath. Shiok xia. I unwrap all the present. I received 5 perfumes, 4 shirts, 1 bag and many ang bao.. *She gave mi my fav perfume. Hugo Boss. But other friends gave mi the same one too.

After all i really wanna thank everyone who attended my party. Thanks for ur presents and ang bao. Last but not least my parents who brought mi up to this age. Thank u them for all the hard effort.. All the best.

I had just received a birthday card from Jin.. The birthday card have birthday song some more.. hehe very nice. She wrote those wishing words and ask a piece of cake from mi. Hee.. Thanks alot. I will give u one too this wed.

Same again today its a tiring day.. 1st thing in the morning i heard good news. Jin is getting better. She is willing to eat and help herself. I am very happy and fan xin when heard tat. Just now in the evening i called her... she told mi tat she is very eager to attend my birthday party.. I hear liao very touched. Although she is in the hosptial now but she would still like to attend my birthday party. Hiaz too bad. Her birthday is on 3rd of sept.. 2 days b4 mi... Hope her parents can celebrate her birthday in the hosptial. Stay happy Jin.

This morning... she used to be online b4 mi. I waited to 9am.. She was still not on msn. I msg her but no reply..... I called her friend and asked. She was here liao her friend told mi. Meanwhile the msg tone came. She was there but no online. I am glad to see tat cos i thought something happened to her. Later in the evening i heard something tat hurts. "Becos he is too good so i am not suitable for him"... *sorry if i betray u (the person said) I act as usual but there are cuts in my heart .. layer by layer.. If i dun treat her good who else can treat her better.. I really dun understand wat she is thinking. Wat i did wrong???.. I wanna treat her good becos i love (maybe it is too strong) her. I care for her becos i love her. No one b4, i had ever commit so much. In the end my return is i am too good?? Yes i am good!! WAT THE FUCK!!!! Is this a way to reject? WHY?? CAN TELL MI OR NOT?? Why cant someone appreaciate wat i had done? WHY CANT! I really fed up..!! Some would say "who ask u? u find it urself one mah" But my patient of waiting and saddness of loving someone u know?? No one knows...... sobbb

Maybe it is an one-sided love... Maybe we should see each other 10 years down the road, a simple "HI" will do... Maybe by the time i forget u... Or the happiest u are my girl...

Humans tend to only learn to cherish & treasure their loved ones only after losing them. That's also when u realised the importance of a person: whereby regrets occurs and it really hurts alot , really....
No doubt in some cases we do get a 2nd chance but wad if we don't? or rather we can't?
So treasure them from today on & leave no regrets, alrite?

Today is my mum's 50th birthday. We intend to go out eat but something bad happened. I am shocked to hear my mum's call. My dearest uncle's daughter was hospitalised. I am sad and hurted cos she is one of my doting cousin. She is so young and is forced to hospitalise. She had lost too much weight. That's why i feel so tired and sad these few days cos not only my mum who is worry abt her, i also. Sob sob. I pray hard she would be fine. I seen her grown up since she was young and i dun wanna lose her. Sometimes when i looked into my uncle's eyes, they tell mi how sad he is. Life is filled with lots of saddness. Pls dun let mi lose someone i love and care.. God bless u.. Jin

Today is a busy day. Early morning got lots of excel to do. We finished them within hours and handed up couple of hours earlier. Hee. At 1st still thought cannot finish but in the end we finished so fast. Not bad huh... hehe. After the hardwork, i spend my time zo bo, surf net, chat wif friends on msn and going toilet. hehe.

Ber i read ur "story" line loh... I know "mian jiang bu shi xing fu" but "wo na de qi fang bu xia". Maybe the problem lies on me. My point of view is "gan qing shi ke yi pei yang de", the main objective is whether the opposite party is willing to give u a chance or not. Last few years, i had scolded my brother,"Chase the ger for 2 years still dun wanna give up, if mi i give up in the very beginning liao!" My turn now... I know wat my brother is commiting during tat 2 hard years liao. Sorry di. Ppl maybe saying y i so tian zhen but when u really fall in love wif someone, u are willing to commit. Dun u believe mi?? HAIZ!!!! Life is sucks!! I wonder y i was borned onto this world with so many up and down. Sometime i really hate life!! Love affair, money problem, working and study stress. Hiaz... suddenly feel so phyiscal and mentally tired. Sian man.

Now listening to "wang ji ni wo zhou bu dao".... Long time nv hear this song liao. Very match my msn nick hor. hehe. Sad xia this song. (*my heart cries) Every word in this song seems so meaningful and touch....

It Sunday lo.. Sian tml monday liao, have to work again. Today win $$ hehe. Happy xia. Hiaz today actually wanna take her for a ride one but my dad drive to his brother house. Bo bian so cannot take her out. I hope she understand. : ) Nothing much happening today... I go watch soccer liao.

3.00am le. Just finish mahjong session. Haiz lost money again. These few weeks quite suay man. Sob sob. Yeah Man Utd won Newcastle!! Final score 2-1. Utd is playing quite well oh. Very tired liao i go kun loh.

1st time writing this thing.. hehe. Today is the 4th day of IPP nothing much done... sian xia. Somemore want mi stay half and hour?! forget it man. Pui! sorry har too voilent liao. Haha.. Actually tml i may have gone to hui ling's house to fix her com one but she cancelled the date. *dissappointed man. Is god trying to play a fool with mi or testing my patient?? Ai yo!! Zhou ren zhen nan.. zhou nan ren gen na. Y huh?? Can someone tell mi??...... Haiz I knew the ans liao y cant i just let go.. this feeling is just staying in my heart for almost 2 years... from my bottom of my heart, after so many incidents U are always the one and only i love and care. No other ppl can replace the room inside my heart...