How to 4get a person when u c her evryday? I noe its veri diff 2 do tat but u gonna try...Ray, when u reali luv sum1 wif ur all heart and 1 day e person tell u tat she dun like u, i noe its reali hurt and u noe dere is no chance anymore. Its impossible btwn u two anymore but u noe u ought to give it up and 4get her. The onli way is to dun contact her. U may see her evryday but try 2 avoid each other and dun contact her until u come tis day when u realise tat u no longer have feelings 4 her. dats when u noe u have 4get her and have move on wif ur life. I noe that u hav waited 4 her 4 more den 2 yrs so it will be difficult to forget her. However, during those 2 yrs tat u have spent wif her, u were hapi. She bring u happiness...at least she left u memories tat u were remember always. Its time 2 move on wif ur life and find sum1 else. if eva u gonna remain dere, it will be difficult 4 ur to carry on wif ur life. Things will change after u have 4get. Ur life may change oso but dere 1 thg u gonna noe is tat, e memories tat she hav left on u will always be in ur heart n u noe dats in ur heart, dere was a place 4 her b4 and she was once the person u luv most and nth can change e fact. If u trust mi n believe mi, try not 2 contact her n i promise u tat u will 4get her. However, u muz rem tat u might end up losing a fren. I noe u dun wanna lose her as a fren but if u dun wanna lose her as a fren, u got 2 bear all e pain tat u have suffered. Its up 2 u 2 decide....(",)
From a concern friend....

(2 my concern friend.. i will contact and talk to her cos i still treat her as a friend. I try to limit myself to her. To avoid and not contacting her, i really dun bear it. I would rather suffer than 2 ppl suffer.)

Today was a fine day. The weather was good and feeling alittle relax on myself. I reported work at 8.45 as usual. Zo bo whole afternoon den thought supervisor not coming but at 3pm, suddenly he appears!! I was playing icq and msn. I think he saw it liao. But nvm lah.... Den later in the evening he checked my work and 1st time heard he saying "Well Done, Raymond!" Suddenly i feel so wonderful and willing to work for him. But for awhile nia. haha...

Today we went back NYP eat as usual. Lewis, Wei Khoon, Jasmine, Angela, Alinda and i met together. We were happily chatting and eatting at Food J. At 1pm, we have to leave the canteen. Most of them went for their lessons and i went to find Elphin. Chat with her for abt 30mins.. Nice chat with her. Den abt 1.45pm i leave NYP and walked quickly back to work.

At nite i met ah de and his family for dinner. I finally get to see him from Chinese New Year. He is always so cute. I played with him and joked with him. He is 5 years old now and is very clever. He helps mi to relax alittle when i played with him. He very kuku one.. I said wat he repeated wat i said. I posted some funny action, he also did the same thing as mi. Funny child. He went back to Malaysia after our dinner. Hope to see him more in the future.

Last nite was a moody nite. I need someone to talk to and i called my best friend, Geannie. I told her abt monday nite incident. Tears rolled down my cheek when we start the conversation. First time ever i cried in front of a ger. I cant control myself. Maybe crying out feels better as other ppl always say.

Geannie and i had a long chat. As a best friend of mine, she always gave mi advise. I listened. She cooled mi too. Time proof everything. She has confident on mi to forget her. I need support from her and other friends. The matter is over. But how abt our future days?? I cant imagine it. I dun want to lose a friend. I dun want to love her again. I dun want.... I am now in a very trouble situation. I really need time to think and handle things now. Hope i can do it...

Last nite went to Jun Hao's house to eat black pepper crab. Jiun Wei, Rong Fu, Yi Zhong, Shi Ling, Karen and Hui Ling were all there too. His house is very big. So much bigger than ours. haha. Toking cork xia... Jiun Wei, Jun Hao and Yi Zhong were in the kitchen cooking and i was in the van toking to friends...

First was Rong Fu, second was Karen and the third one came Hui Ling. This was a good chance for us to tok. I threw all my feelings to her. I feel so sad when the conversation. I nearly burst into tears with wat i had said. Its all from my bottom of my heart. We had a good chat for almost an hour. Finally i heard something tat i really want to hear.... although its quite hurt but i love direct ans. She said i and her were impossible. Good ans!! I feel extermely depressed when she finished tat sentence. Its all over i would say. She had not much to say... as usual "Thank u so much for ....." and "Sorry..." I reply,"After this conversation and once we alight the van, i cannot promise what will happen and we might not be the same as last time... maybe we are no friends... i dun know. U really nothing to say?" She reply "Ermm nothing much.. i dun know wat to say.." Well maybe she was not good at these things. I nv forced myself for any ans. We alight the van and went for dinner....

After sending Rong Fu home, i was alone in the van. Recalling everything just now... I would like to repeat myself again,"I had nv regret loving u, Hui Ling."

Just reach home from hao's birthday treat. We went to geylang and eat frog leg porridge. The porridge was nice. I eaten 4 full bowls. Thanks to KAREN!! Give mi so many!! haha. Anyway thanks for jun hao treat.

After dinner, we walked around geylang and see chio bu. Today business not very good. See 3 "chicken" only. Opps it seems like i am calling... ermm ermm. After a while, we went back home loh. Jun hao send us home one by one. We sat behind his lorry and going up PIE, all hairstyle changed. haha Got siao one, got jap one, got mushroom one and side parting one.

Quite a wonderful trip. Everyone is playing and joking at all time.... Hope to see u all next time. : )

These few months, i am feeling so tired and stress on life. FYPJ lah, family problem lah, IPP lah and other personal problems. Everyday i am facing these!! Attachment supervisor give fucking face and attitude to my work! Wat i did wrong, jus leave work place immediate after 6pm, he dun like liao. Wat he wants?

Jus quarrel with my brother. AP from him which make mi fucking tu lan. Everyday give mi guai lan face den tok to mi as if i am his enemy. I feel like slapping his face. Teach him a lesson. Last few days on the phone, he tok buay song to mi and i scolded him KNN. He complaint to my parents. My parents nv scold him for his rudeness but in the end i am the one who get scolded!! I feel unfair. If he nv shout at mi i will not scold him. I am ALWAYS the one. I treat family members good but the return was sucks!! Always helping up my brother. "Didi still young." _|_ (-_-) _|_ 19 still young.

I am just piss off with everything. I jus want fairness, appreciation and respect.
I am tired... Sometimes i tried to keep myself happy and tok cold jokes to lighten my life but when i was lonely, things are different. U may see mi playing a fool and joking with u all but i have lots of sadness and difficulties. Wo de ku shui zhi dao.....

Why we need love? Why we need care? Is this a need for us or something that we are finding for? There are many many qns and ans to it. Wat is love actually? Something that both parties commit or something that one-side is commiting? Loving someone hurt when there is no return of love. Loving feels good but it feels even better when u are being loved in return. Some would say, love is just like chewing gum; it tastes the sweetest in the beginning but in the end it is tasteless. Are these all true??

Crying over for someone who dun likes u. Is this something foolish or u love that person too much? Caring for someone who dun likes u. Is this something we should do as a friend or we are asking something more than that? Well, it may take awhile to love a person but forgetting someone u loved takes times. How u deal with it?

Can anyone ans these qns? Think abt it and ask urself how well u know abt love. I myself was blur abt it....... wat is ......??

Haiz... quite stress these few days. Attachment so sian, so many work do, do liao hand up still cannot, wanna go home after 6pm supervisor give face see. Wat the!! Attachment only, wanna us to stay back for OT. Wat lau one day $20++ only, want us to work like slaves ar!!

I hope to go back sch asap. At least can see my friends and joke around. Attachment almost 8hrs in front of the stupid com. I think after IPP my eye sight will be blur liao!! (@@ ) Wah buay ta han liao.. i very tired loh i go kun liao. ZzZzzz....

Wat a tired day. Today worked till 7.30pm man. Bo bian work cannot finish so must stay if not 6pm go home liao. Yawn... Den take cab home.. sa li traffic jam.. sian reach home $8.80!! Wat liew. So expensive...

One week liao.. i had talked to her not more than 20 sentences. My friend told mi to be normal but i dun know where to start. I neither wanna joke with her nor serious to her.. I am stuck. How? Ermm maybe this is the way?? I blur liao...

Yeah today its my 21st BIRTHDAY!!! The key to freedom. Can make more decision liao. The very 1st sec at 12a.m, i received the 1st msg from her.. haiz. again?! hmmm.. den follow by my fellow friends.. msg keep coming in. During mid-night i also receive birthday msg.. Early moring also... i can say through out the whole day i am just reading "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" messages. haha.

At night, actually wanna go ktv enjoy one but many of my friends cannot make it. But nvm lah last saturday celebrate liao. In the end i treated my family members go eat dinner.

30 mins from now... my birthday is going to be over. Its just a day but to mi 21 is a very special starting point for an young adult. I may have a wish that cannot be fulfilled but i hope this time around my wishes would come true....

It's time for mi to change a way to treat her liao. I know this might be cruel but i have no choice. To make myself not falling into her i should keep a distance (not far lah). I am doing it on my part and not for her. I am sad to do this. Last time i carry out jokes and find topic to talk to her but now it seems like it will nv happen anymore. I still talk to her but lesser liao. I feel awkward but... but... ....

Many of my friends sense tat i am giving up on her. Ask mi here and there. Haiz. Giving up on her is very difficult. That's why i had chosen that way, maybe it can help. I am not giving any pressure on her and for myself. Maybe we should be normal friends and no fate to be togther.

30 mins from now... 21st birthday reaching soon... Wish mi HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! :)

Today on MC leave. Sore throat and flu xia. Staying at home zo bo, msn and icq. Den evening ammend things in my blog. Hehe. Tml return work liao.. Today Jin's birthday. I had given her a birthday card and ask my mum to pass it to her. Today whole day blur blur one, very tired too. I woke up at 1pm 3 something i sleepy liao. The medicine works.. hehe. I chao liao see ya.. : )

We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives.
Jia Tao

Its raining this morning. It would be nice to have a few more hours of sleep. Now in office, zo bo den take a nap. hehe. Fake fake see codes but sleeping in front of the com. Having sore throat and flu now. Last nite too much satay, black pepper and chili chicken at marina south liao.

I had thought abt her matter few days liao. Its time for mi to give up and a full stop would end the 2 yrs waiting. If i continue to wait the ans is still the same. Last 2 yrs would left mi a memory. A sad memory i would say. Waiting and loving someone tat dun love or appreaciate u hurts. I had also thought of not treating her as good as last time liao. I would like to stay a distance from her not becos i wanna avoid her but to tell myself not to fall into another one-sided love. A normal friend will do. No best friend or buddy pls... I had enough for myself liao... really wo shou gou le!!!!!