last 2 day which is saturday.. as usual mahjong at home. b4 tat went out with yi san, peiting, wei wei and liang shiang. reach home around 12am and started my part-time job.

i was damn suay and lost $80++.. my brother was the big winner. i think he won $100+ ba. he ends my career. this was the greatest defeat in my 4 years of mahjong career. haha. currently bankrupt liao. today surpose to go escape with yi san, peiting, wei wei and liang shiang but sorry i really pok liao.

last few weeks, have been thinking of her matter. ya i think its time to give up. really give up. i feel tat chances had hit to zero. so wat for? every morning, i am feeling so numb and dun even wanna look forward and hope for any chances. seriously this time round i dun feel sad at all. i am looking forward to my life.. a guy who is single and available.. haha

evening went causeway point meet yi san, pei ting, liang shing and wei wei. they played pool but i meet them for movie. we watched the 615pm show; "TROY".

i think yi san today is going mad. i caught her zhao sia. mai xi piao (buy movie tickets).. she said mai hee piao. hahaha. i peng xia. she nv realise. all the way i suan her. den she caught me saying woh zai(guess 3)... when it should be wo cai. haha. ok nvm one on one. den i remember her genting pic with 2 little cute fingers pointing. i keep on learning how she points den make funny faces. she laughed till see teeth no see eyes. haha. anyway thanks her for buying something when she was to the genting trip. xie xie ni.. muackkk!!! song?

by 930, we finished the movie. good show man. went food court sit down eat and talk. talked cock by the way. haha. den i say wat, do wat the 2 gers laugh. haiz. my face so funny or stupid? haha let mi know leh. hehe. back home. today spent alot. have to ask friends for mahjong and earn some income liao. just joking...

wah seh these few days (sat, sun and monday) have mahjong all the while. yesterday zhi wei and ah meng was at my house. i won 11 bucks nia. all these while i am winning. who wanna xia zheng su? put ur horse come! haha.. machiam i sure win. joking nia.

last nite chat with someone (dun post name better) over her love matter. i think she had grown more mature after this experience. one-sided love... haiz. i know her feelings cos i also feel machiam the same. sadder. well if they dun appreciate it, they lost us. we can find someone else. we have the ben qian. maybe other need us. (wah seh i say till i very sheng like tat) :) have a good and fun chat with her. she got a very good ear. i zhao sia she spot it. should be "pang bian" she caught mi "bang bian"... it sounds really fun. we had a good laugh.. haha. hope after this talk she might get better. good luck man..

this noon met lewis and kenny at amk. just a short gathering. went to buy a new techno cd "SPEED UP". den went back home around 5. the cd is very shiok. loud volume machiam at pub haha. the bass very song man. but hor i listen till fall asleep...

wah seh last nite mahjong won $62. haha. bei fong xi, zhi mo 4 tai and bei fong bei tat means i am the "tong", zhi mo 5 tai 2 times. one of the zhi mos' were one of the best cards i even played. zhi mo da san yuan with only wan zhi (4 wan, 5 wan and 6 wan). i was waiting for only huat cai and nan fong. i am so lucky tat i gan hong zhong, take from flower there, huat cai is there waiting for mi and boom ZHI MO!! haha. i cant believe it man!! shiok!

last nite wei wei they all dun know why drive car to my house. call mi in the middle of the night ask mi go down-stair join them. sorry to all of u.. i am busy with mahjong and cannot walk away cos my friends were at my house. if i free i sure go down. better luck next time. hehe. ho lah get to prepare for my lunch liao.. hehe chao!

these few days very hot xia. having lunch and dinner i also sweat. on air-con to 16 degree machiam no kick. my room is still warm. this weather is really killing mi. weather gets hot, i feel more pek cek. !@#$%^&*()

zhou bo these few days. noon time play mahjong with zhi wei, ah meng and steven. lost abit at round one but won back at the second round. hehe. later at 1230am jia he and steven will be coming again. wish mi good luck. hehe. got to do some preparation liao. see u guys. :)

yesterday went to corine's 21st birthday at tanah merah nation service resort. was a long journey there. meet bernie, shiling and alvin at yishun mrt station followed by kenny at amk. reached tanah merah mrt station at abt 530. we waited for jannelle and lewis. by 545, all of us were together. waited for the shuttle bus at a nearby taxi-stand. very zhun, 6pm the bus reached.

reached corine's chalet. sit for awhile and started our dinner. the bufflet was alright. we were sweating while having our dinner cos the weather there was so hot. the bbq made it even worse. omg! once finished dinner, we rushed to an air-con room.. wahh shiok. cooling. hehe. zhou bo there and was discussing abt playing mahjong. but hor very pai seh cos had to play in the living hall when everyone was watching tv. so end up staying in the room.

kenny came out with "heart-attack". ok steady.. 7 of us started playing. my hands were beaten up like hell. but also got wack ppl lah. solid red. den jannelle finger nails were long!! kenna pok pok a few times. omg its really painful. haha. spend almost 1/1/2 hr playing and we had a great time.

by 10, cut cake liao. as usual sing birthday song and take pics. the cake was nice. swensen ice cream cake!! shiok! at abt 1045 we decided to leave in order to catch the last shuttle bus at 11. broad the bus and head forward tanah merah mrt station. we were heng to catch the last train... by 1, i reached home. wah seh very tired. bath rest awhile.. boom in my dreams liao.. hehe :)

> It's not u want in life...
It's knowing how to reach it.

> It's not how high u want to rise..
It's knowing how to take off.

> It's not the goal u set..
It's what u need to achieve it.

> It's not where u want to go...
It's knowing how to get there.

> It's not what u dream of doing...
It's having the knowledge to do it.

> It's not wat u want to be...
It's how u become it.

Finally my studies were over! Today finished the last paper. Last nite happened to "sleep" at 1am. I was very tired. i jumped into my bed and I CANT SLEEP!! WTF! i was rolling all over my bed.. 2.30am... 3.30am... 4.30am.. 5am!! i knocked off. wat the hell! 6.30am.. "ah boy ar 6.30am liao.. i was orhhh ok, have to go sch liao" haiz.. The paper today was alright. Hope to have a clear pass.

She left Singapore for KL last nite. She went for a holiday and will be back in a few days time. I was like having she bu de feelings. Really miss her sms, her chat and her voice. Having someone u like depart from u for a few moments, the feelings is so weird. Hope she comes back asap... Well, wishing her to enjoy as much during this trip. :)

It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone. but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. a sad thing about life is when you meet someone that means a lot to you but only to find in the end, that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go. Its true that we dun know what we have got until we lose it, but its also true that we dont know what we have been missing until it arrives. giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they wil love you back, dont expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their hearts. but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours....

2 paper gone. Left 2 paper more. today's paper sucks big time loh. fucking Sunny Sin!!!!!!! the tips he given most of them nv come out. Siao liao.. really siao liao. haha but nvm alot of ppl kbkb too. hope he does some moderation. hehe

today i met a funniest incident in sch. lewis bike kenna wheel-locked. haha. 1st time in sch saw this incident happened. he had to make his way to the security room... haha. i think the security guards know him liao!! hope he will be fine. :)