Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up on him,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who kisses your forhead,
who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

ok i am trying to be smile =) 

A Touching Poem To You...

I'm trying to forget about it,
I'm trying to let it go.
I'm trying not to think about it,
I'm trying not to let my feelings show.

Our lives are on different paths,
And I'm happy we finally spoke.
You have so much you want to do,
And I feel like my heart just broke.

We have so much in common,
But your so far away.
We are perfect for one another,
But we'll never see that day.

We have so much history behind us,
But the timing is always wrong.
The years just continue passing,
And our lives move right along.

I thought we might have a chance,
To finally get it right.
Not just two friends from way back when,
But I guess it's not worth the fight.

Sometimes life seems so unfair,
When things don't go our way.
I wanted you to be it for me,
I wanted you in my life to stay.

Everything seems far fetched again,
Because I realized we'll never get to be,
Anything more than destined friends,
And that's so sad to me.

I wish I would have held back,
I wish I didn't give in.
I wish things could be different,
I wish that I could win.

Win at getting your heart,
Win at making you see,
That we are truly meant for each other,
And that's how it should be.

So I'm trying to forget about it,
I'm trying to let it all go.
I'm trying not to think about it,
I'm trying not to let my feelings show.

If all we'll ever be is friends,
I guess I'll try to move on.
Just know that my heart is always open,
And my love for you will never be gone.

went to fetch Geralyn home... i lost my way again... i cant find Queens Street. I did pass by the building but so near yet so far.

finally get to see her... she wanna eat mentos so i went cheers and bought her one. i told her i am a good artist. haha. yes i am!! i drew her face and she seems impress with it. *i hope so =) went around orchard to familiarise with the roads. she is a great street directory.

i drove her home but it was abit early.. "U" turn and head to woodlands.. and pump petrol... back to Bukit Panjang... hahaha...

on the way, she asked mi something and i told her how and wat i feel. everything was said in a very kou chi way. i am really sucks but its all true feelings. i hope she have seen my serious side.

reached her house and back to woodlands.. i was lonely... no one to talk to.. thinking wat had jus happened. driving in a very slow speed. dun care how many cars had overtaken mi. i am jus like the blur king on the road thinking of lots of things. finally home and i am preparing to go sleep.. nitez.

today is freaking tired.. sleeping soon.

feeling misable these weeks and days... in my mind are "I dun know?", "Wat i wan?" and "Wat am i doing."

Have i given up? or am i doing thing for a friend or someone special? was told to know as many friends as possible in friendster. i listened.. and i did it. i feel like a bastard cos its not my way of doing. i feeling terrible sometimes.

through out these years, i lost tones of self confidence. trying to stand up whenever i fall and was abt to be strong, i fell again...

fate? when?? u believe?? haiz... i am in doubt.. i keep it in my heart. i keep it as nothing had happened.. but one most important thing is, i will nv lie myself. trying to look at the brighter side. yah i can!! but when night falls and music plays, everything is back to square one.

i couldn do anything on it.. wat i can is blessing everyday.. hope u are doing fine, stay happy and in good health condition.. =)

was a tired saturday. early in the morning, my uncle ah huat called mi. he wannted mi to go to his house cos my mum and bro are going. i agreed with him and we headed to his house in the noon.

reached his house at abt 230. had my meal and awhile later we started our mahjong session. lost $10.. hump..

after reaching home not more than 10mins, went out again. Geralyn's ah gong passed away. so went to attend the furneal. i got my way there and nv hol lan (miss my way).. haha.. quite a easy route there. sat down and chatted with her. she seems very very tired. haiz.. must rest well leh. played with her little cousin. oh shit i forget her name le. she is very cute and funny.. she laughed like nobody business. i taught her wat she will say wat. wahaha quite a adorable ger. left there at abt 1230am.

home sweet home...

jus get to catch up with my poly friend Elphin. oh she is leaving Singapore for further studies. its grad to hear that she is doing well. feeling abit emotional cos a friend is leaving for 3 years. haiz.... : (

its has been a long time we last met. i think is during sch day ba. will be asking her out for a dinner treat. maybe get her something also? yah...

today work load is freaking heavy!! dun even have the time to go toilet. and this big project its got to be very stress. oh man wish mi good luck.. chaoz!!

ok today was on MC. my nose was damn itchy... and it was not those normal itch. was awake last nite. woke up with flu and headache.

consult a doc this morning. yah my nose is damn sensitive. he added it was abit inflection. oh gosh.. 1st time hear it~!

ok reached home.. slacked whole day playing ps2.

going to sleep soon. jus got to know something happened to u. hope everything is fine. chaoz

Balance Sheet of Life

Our Birth is our Opening Balance

Our Death is our Closing Balance

Our Prejudiced Views are our Liabilities

Our Creative Ideas are our Assets


Heart is our Current Asset

Soul is our Fixed Asset

Brain is our Fixed Deposit

Thinking is our Current Account


Achievements are our Capital

Character & Morals, our Stock-in-Trade

Friends are our General Reserves

Values & Behaviour are our Goodwill

Patience is our Interest Earned

Love is our Dividend

Children are our Bonus Issues

Education is Brands / Patents


Knowledge is our Investment

Experience is our Premium Account


The Aim


Reduce liabilities to zero at the end of the day.

Keep the current account active and alive.

Increase the value of the fixed deposit

by transferring funds from the current account.

Increase the value of the current assets every day.

Distribute the dividend with open hands.

today (sat) was a tiring day.

woke up at 1+pm. had my "breakfast". played msn and my ps2 the whole afternoon. was abit tired after the gamings. decided to take a nap. had a very very bad dream. i dream of ghost again. this time i was smashed into a wall by a very great force. this force alert mi. i was waken to half asleep. i try to call my mum... i did.. but i cant shout. i decided to move my body but there was "someone" holding mi. i slowly open my eyes but i failed... the feeling was terrible. i told myself yes i can overcome "u"... slowly with strong mentally, i pushed myself up and i was totally wake. sound dramaical. the dream and someone grapping mi were terrible. i told my mum abt this... she wanted mi to go pai pai cos these few nitez i have been dreaming abt ghost...

yah woke up had my dinner and decided to meet up Eunice for a movie. went to tampines mall and watched. 1st time driving there. check out street directory and copy down the roads. exit from TPE, i hol lan again... cant find ave 12 i go one big round and stop at a nearby bus-stop. damn pai seh xia. i asked a aunty for help. she kindly told mi the way there.. yes i made it.. haha. now i know where TM is liao. watched Pacifier. ya a warm and comdy movie. send Eunice home and headed home. the roads sign were very small. i nearly hol lan again. haha. i am really a road bai chi...

reached home at abt 2.30. bath, sit down for ps2 again. blogging and the next moment i will be in bed. good nite.

Today took half day again for my medical appointment on my wrist. Finished most of my work given by my SIR. At 12.30pm, i left office.

Met up my mum at novena mrt cos she wanna visit the sin sen too. her back is in pain. went to bugis for lunch and met up my dad at 2. he fetch us there. at around 2.15 we reached the medical centre. the treatment ended abt 3. headed home...

reached home , had a cool bath and prepare to go out at 545. meeting OPD officers for a birthday dinner at novena fish & co. called lewis cos i saw someone familiar. he wanted mi to met him. where? bugis again.... ok~~ i met him up after my dinner.

went to bugis and had a dersert while they havdtheir dinner (jon and jia jie also joined in). at abt 10 i left.. home sweet home...

friday - work load damn alot. i have to sacrifice my lunch time. evening went to Dede's 7th birthday treat. (his dad treating us) he likes ultra-man alot. this time no more soft toy. i get him a ultra-man pillow. not bad huh, whenever he sleeps, he will think of kor kor. haha

saturday - 6pm+ go town eat, jan lan jan lan. 10+ go old market makan supper.

oh man.. i am having a bad headache since last nite. taken panadol last nite and this morning. still feeling the ache. jus taken 2 pills from the doctor. hope can recover by tml morning...

Woo hoo!! going to knock off soon.. 15 more mins. by the time i finish this blog, i think its dismissal time!! yeah~!

today seems to be a relaxing day. morning did abit of editing on web-site, lunch time went orchard and get presents for my 3 colleagues. reached office at around 215 sharp. get myself settled which took around 15 more mins. haha. did some photocopying for my SIR. by 345 i am eng eng cheng cheng liao.

went to get my fav m&m and a cup of hot milo during the tea break. shiok!! oh man i have been eating m&m for the past 4 days. i think i should stop eating b4 i got a sore throat. wah choy!! hoo~~ final count down, time check; 5mins left.

ok maybe an early dismiss? My bells ring and zoom i go.. bye

Mid-week is reaching.. today was a busy day. somehow i find it good cos time really pass very fast.

i think i need to visit the chinese doc again. my wrist is still in pain and a bit swollen. maybe these 2 days will make a trip to the sin sen. haiz.

jus reached home from town. went out with lewis.

went to eat fish & co. oh man its fantastic!! good recommendation. spend $28 each. after makan, we jan lan jan lan at orchard. was abt to go home and..... it started to pour heavily. ran for shelter at cien. went to burgerking for a drink.

at abt 1015, home sweet home. tml monday loh!! woo hoo 5 more days to weekends!! haha

this afternoon, ah hong(my cousin) and my xiao gu came to my house for mahjong. it has been a long time i played mahjong. the last time i played was during CNY.

tong feng tong and tong feng nan, i lost $15 liao... and after one tong, i lost $20++ loh. cousin pro in zhi mo 5 tai. oh gosh man!!

rounds.. i kept losing and my capital was abt $3 left!! I lost $37 in 2 hrs where we only play $0.20, $0.40. my luck isnt tat good.

my bro reached home. substitution!! wahhh he was so on form!! he won back my capital($40) and an additional of $7 for mi. i gave him some but he rejected.. good bro!! haha.

chaos.. nitez